I've been running since January. I've completed three 5k's. I've been running 3-4 times a week for months. I sign up for the marathon and my desire comes to a screeching halt. What the Hell? How? Why? I have no doubt I'll overcome it, but I hate that it's here. Tonight was a run night, but I had to go grocery shopping. By the time I got home from work, fixed dinner, and put Harri to bed I just wasn't feeling it. I finally convinced myself to go run and Savannah reminds me I told her we'd run tonight. Sigh. Do I tell her no and listen to her "you promised" meltdown or sacrifice my run and let her go?? Decisions, decisions... I let her go. BIG MISTAKE. She didn't want to keep pace, she'd run fast, and walk, then I'd be in front of her and she'd be mad I didn't wait. It was the worst half mile of my life. I came home mad that I didn't get my run in, annoyed at Savannah, annoyed at myself and over all pissed off. Not good.
I need to figure out how to get my mojo back. I supposed this is all part of the journey. The ups, the downs...I guess I just didn't expect a down so soon :O(
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Been thinking about this one all day...It's a vicious cycle I go through. I love to run, and I do it ok. I start out strong for a week, then something gets in the way and I miss a day, then another, then I give up for a while. Then I get motivated again. Why can't I keep up that motivation and make it a priority? Idk right now. But I need to...seriously. Don't let your funk last like mine has, I'm kicking myself right now for what my body looks like compared to what it did a year ago.
I LOST MOTIVATION DURING THANKSGIVING BREAK. you're doing awesome compared to alot of ppl! don't kick yourself too much. you'll get it back sister.
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